Just me

Mannequins carved for perfection
on the window to be seen,
looking at the reflection in the mirror
wishing I could see perfection in and out,
but what I see is me, not something to put out on a stand
for everyone to admire, but just me.
No more walking with my head down,
it is time to stand up tall and proud:
not for the picture people perceive me to be,
but for the picture that I am.
Me, Just me 

Live

Live Life
Live it hard
Love it
Be free
And hold on tight
For survival might be shaky
Especially on those dark days
Don't fall, don't stop, please don't stop
Live on, courage, strength
Hold yourself and love yourself
With love, passion, and courage you will survive

The Real Pain

A deep breath I take
Stabbing my fist into the pit of my stomach
My blood boiling inside of me
The sweat dripping down my forehead
I reach rapidly for my hair with my fearful shaky hands
banging my head towards the hard naked floor
again and again
Taking pain in pleasure
I suck my fingernails into my flesh
squeezing the blood out.
Only to release the worst pain that I have inside

Little light

How you shine so bright
So delicate and white
You light up the world
And bring a smile to all
Your hold is tender and
Your words are true
Your ears are present and
Your heart is pure
No judgment from you
Just understanding and
Protection for those
who are done wrong
You brought the sun
when you were born
and you still continue to glow
Thank you for the happiness
you have brought us all

The Flag

Emotional, giving, moody
Can be cold yet warm
Encouraging and demanding
You who we could not live without
Who nourishes are needs and is present when called
You who is a role model
To those little feet who dare try to follow
Yet lost in the way
Is quite not there
She makes her own footsteps
Hoping you approve
She can not follow but she makes her own
Do not hate her for failing
But love her for trying
And succeeding in her own path

Creator

That may strike at any time
Looking up to a man so powerful
Frightened I was
But that man who looked like a giant once
Is only but a man
A man with faults
A man who is in pain
Who is sensitive, fragile, and kind
A man who brought me life
Who I love no matter how much pain I have suffered
I do hope you forgive me for the pain I have brought you
When I had to flee, to fly away and be free

Mother

Eyes so warm
Face so fragile
Mind so strong
There she would be
If you needed a wipe off the cheek
Or a crumb in the mouth
Or a penny in the pocket
She was there waiting for you
From her not one resentment
Not one cruelty
Just unconditional endless love and support

Unwanted Child

Concealed from my birthright
Born in shame
Abandoned by my conceivers
Unwanted
Left to uncaring strangers.
I was just a helpless, innocent child
Wanting, lacking some love.
Now I live with the hate that I inherited

I alive when I feel and dead when I don't

I crave to feel
To live in the moment
To love the moment
To hate the moment
For it is a high
It feeds me
The pain to feel use to destroy me
but the pain to not feel is death on earth

Hope

Blood dripping
Metal shining
Body weakening
Eyes tearing
Heart sinking
Where there is silence there is a hint of death
Where there is noise there is life
Stand in the middle of the noise