Lost Love

I had a love once
A love
A love who is now not with me
Still today I search for it
My journey continues
For my love
And I have faith one day it will return

Humanity

Life how complicated
Feelings how unexplained
Emotions how burs table
Being a human
Is what its about
Feeling-loving-hating-crying
All of it makes you a human

Track

Never lose your way
Your innocence
Keep your pure heart
The kindness to others
The beauty of the world
Don lose it.
Be naive but smart
Play the game but know

The hurt child

The child who was hurt
and shy and embarrassed
and thought she was little
and stupid and not worthy
still cries
All she needed was a pat on the back
a smile, or a word saying
you're pretty, your smart, you're special
She never did get this, did she?
But she is

The scale of life

Stimulation.
Silence.
GO...GO...GO!
STOP!
Love.
Hate.
Tears.
Laughter.
Balance is what one needs.
To live a full life.

Looking forward

Back home is where my love is, my heart
Woke up dreaming of them
Of taking care of them
What happened to me? 
I really want to be able to take care of them
financially, emotionally 
I can wait for the day that I will be able to

Pure Love

The love I feel for you
And you are not even born
That love is so pure
So magical
So loving
If fills my whole being
You gave me a reason to live
Depression is not a feeling
in my being with your presence
To hold you
To protect you
I wait for the day of your arrival

Feelings for a lover

I would do anything for you
If you needed a heart I would give you mine
I would take a bullet for you
If you were dying I would die with you
If you had Aids, I would get infected with your disease to be with you

I want you to drink my blood and I would drink yours to be part of you
I would drink you to take you in completely
I would live with you in a box if I had to
If I had to live on the streets with no money just to be
with you, I would
Just to be with you, to feel you
My feelings run deep and I wouldn¡¦t take anything less

I swim in your essence; I breath your essence
What desire, stimulation, longing, & aches I feel for you
I love your little ways, the way you kiss my neck, my mouth
The way you touch me inside brings me to another dimension
And the whole world around me is forgotten
All there is, is you and me in ecstasy

Hard to say you care

I know you want to tell me how you feel
but you can't
When it gets too heavy you back away
I guess I learned from you
the pain is too great
I know you feel for me and you want to hold me
but you don't know how
But I understand that you love me
I am the grown up now
who still needs you

Heart Wounded but Grateful

I let myself feel and of course it happened again
My heart is broken
I knew it would happen but I let myself feel anyway
And I don't care
I am hurt but you made me feel; you made me feel alive
And I wouldn't change it
I can't change your feelings, and I can't change mine,
But I can go on 
Like a switch I can turn it off, but I am still wounded
A scar remains 
Your memory and your essence will remain
You stirred feelings inside of me that I never knew I had
And other feelings that were closed off
For that I thank you

Understand my silence

I cry for you in silence
Words do not form in your presence
I can not look at you
for if I do I will break
I wish I could hold you
And tell you I'm sorry
I want to kiss your forehead
and say I love you
but the words just don't come out
I hope you understand and feel
my language of silence

My guide

You gave me light
You sheltered me
You cared for me
You gave me love when know one would
When I needed you most you were their

You showed me good
You taught me well
You were my friend through life
You were their
How can I repay the things you did?

I was all alone until you came along
I was down under and you brought me up
I thought I would never heal but you showed me otherwise
When I thought I had no hope you proved me wrong
When I failed you rose me up
You were my light but now you are gone
But the memories stay and the teachings remain
You came to me when I was vulnerable and insecure
And you left me with pride and self confidence
One who isn¡¦t afraid to love and trust again

I will never forget what you did for me
I would be nothing right now
No where if it wasn¡¦t for you
My only regret is anything I did could not repay
or compare to the things you did for me